aim for more than just content

Current topic of the day: relationships. So apparently college is supposed to be the time for meeting new exciting people, everyone knows this.

"duh."

Lately, my friend Robin has been staying over the weekends and he's been talking to me about how I need to be fulfilled. So he's been through this conversation with my other two roommates, and they both agree.

My outlook on this topic. I would say I'm content with what my life is.  I'm happy with the way things are going. But here at Long Beach, I often feel a lack of passion for being here. Then I think, why am I at Long Beach? What is my main purpose for being here?  

my reason: interior design. 

But now, after being bombarded by the topic of relationships from all angles almost possible, I'm starting to consider that maybe I need to get out more...

Now this topic leads to other things, such as the reason I need a job; to meet people.  Not only that, a job would make me become even more independent from the old me.  As of right now, yes, I am independent, but I still feel as if I am being held back. 

Yes, I live in an apartment, live with 3 other girls, and attend school daily, but this apartment I live in, I'm not paying for it, my parents are and the school I attend, my parents pay for that too.  I'm not saying there is anything wrong with that, but I look at my other 3 roommates and they all are managing a job and work.  They have their own money to spend and don't have to run to mommy and daddy for allowance in order to spend it on the things they want. 

I know my parents love me, but sometimes I feel they are just too overprotective. Sometimes, I think they worry too much.  I mean, I'm 18 now and going to be turning 19 in about a week and my mom won't allow me to use my debt/atm card because she feels it isn't safe.  Understandable, but how does me carrying around cash any safer?  I feel it's just MORE dangerous, no?  I want to be able to say to them that yes, I appreciate your help, but can you let me live my own life.  I know in the eyes of parents, they don't want their children to grow up.  They want them to remain children forever.  It's a scary thought, yes, I know, but it's the truth.  I need to break free from their overprotectiveness and prove to them that I can manage school and work.  I need to stop coming home weekly, because when I do come home, I never am able to accomplish any school work.  I always have tasks to do around the house or errands to run. 

so what exactly do I have to do? 

Break free.  Be more outgoing.  Meet people. Manage time.  Establish independence.  

what a depressing post, yes I know.

but it's also semi-optimistic, no?