to have someone
and someone have me.
i never thought it was possible to feel
the joy and happiness
of something real.
i never thought i would have to experience
the pain
the feeling of having everything.
but without you
i feel so confused.
as the days roll on
and i have no certainty.
for...
i wait to feel the buzzing
to read a message that comes from your mind.
and sometimes i chuckle at the make-believe words we make,
but all the same,
it places a smile upon my face,
and...
i wish i could hear your voice
that rings with calmness and poise:
to hear you say "have a good day; i'll talk to you later; good bye"
leaves butterflies in my stomach.
it jumps
it leaps
knowing you're there.
the kindest, smallest hello i hear from you
is the greatest thing i treasure most
along with a hug
(and sometimes), followed by a kiss.
but now that you're gone,
there is no happiness that rings though my body
no joy
no light of hope.
and pours out in place of joy is now
bitterness and sorrow
i fight back the tears, with deep contemplation
and there is an utterance that i wish to say most, which is
i miss you
&
i love you
and wish to be in your arms
for you give me
comfort & security for
you were once mine
and now, we are apart, moving on.
