And Who Said Glasses Can't be Fashionable?

Thin frame line, simple black no longer.  Glasses have definitely revolutionized to color, style (design).  In other words, glasses can be fashionable.  So why the topic of glasses?  Well, this morning, while waiting for class to begin, my classmate was talking to me and he noticed a sign that stated: LOST GLASSES, come to FO3-rm# (something that I cannot recall at this exact moment).

He then said, "hmm, those could be mine...but then again, I lost mine a year ago." (yeah, so definitely not his).  After making that statement, he started to talk about how glasses were so annoying because they were boring and he couldn't see out of the side of his eye when he tried to look out.  I took a moment to think about this, and then I realized what he was saying.  I don't know anyone who actually tires to do that, but there might actually be other people out there, but to me, that's just kind of weird.  So I asked him, "wouldn't you just move your head to see something off to the side?" And his reply, "oh yeah, I guess that would work, for NORMAL people." 

Wow, I was not expecting that answer for wearing glasses. After talking about that, I think we started to talk about how he thought glasses were boring.  But I see things differently.  Glasses are cool, especially now, since there are various frames to chose from.  How fun, no?  (Well, I guess it also depends on the selection you have from your optometrist).

All and all, my conclusion is glasses are cool, when you have the right frame. 

the Lazy days

Heat creates sleepiness.  Heat creates sluggishness.  Heat creates yearning for the cool breeze.  A cool breeze to come and relieve the sticky, wet sweat, to make it disappear.  Yesterday was one of those days, where the heat overpowered the breeze, creating a place of stale warmth, and creating laziness.

bored out of my mind

For the past 2 days, I feel like I've accomplished a lot.

• applied to [more] jobs for the summer
• did laundry
• declared a minor
• applied to mt. sac
• sent transcripts
• cleaned the entire kitchen
• washed dishes
  
• went to the market
• shopped for a new place to live
• posted a notification on craigslist
• cleaned room
• cleaned backpack

and did some other stuff that I can't recall at the moment. But now that I've done all that stuff, I'm pretty bored and tired, so I apologize if my grammar/sentence structure is all over the place and not making sense.

So I started to surf the web and check out various sites. I first started with my email.  Once I was done with that, I moved onto flickr.  Saw some neat photos and then got bored again. So I moved onto the next site, which was my friend Michael's blog. The entry was about how he thinks he's boring. (I don't think he is, me on the other hand, you can say I'm boring).  

So it came down to one of these moments of analyzing things. *sigh* So when you're bored, this is what happens: you think about things and then you start to wonder.  You begin to look into things and try to find a reason/understanding/reason why it is the way it is. But in the end, even if you come to a solution, it's only your conclusion because someone else will have a whole different outlook from what you were once thinking, and then it makes you wonder again.  The cycle begins again and you pick up where you left off. 

As I sit here and write this post, I just noticed everything I said, so in a way, being bored  can lead to a new found something? I guess. But then again, this is just me...and maybe what I just said was kinda weird, for some, while for others, they'll completely agree. 

selfishly inconsiderate [part 1]

Whatever happened to simple acts of kindness jut for the sake of helping people out?

For the past 3 days, I've experienced selfishness in many different forms.

selfishness: lack of consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one's own personal gain

I'm not saying that anyone is free/perfect from being selfish, I know I'm not, but there are certain situations where the selfish attitude is just being foolish

Why can't I just be helpful just because?

Why does everything have to have a reason?

So I was talking to my aunt about apartments in Berkeley (because she attended school there) because my friend is searching for apartments now.  

Her response: why are you looking for apartments in Berkeley?

me: oh, my friend is searching for an apartment, and I was just wondering if you could give me some locations so I can tell him to look around that area.

my aunt: doesn't he know the Berkeley area? Just do a search on Craig's list.

me:...

what I was really thinking:

how does that answer my question?

(I just wanted to give him a more direct location to search around!)

Okay, so maybe that wasn't the greatest examples of being selfish, but still, I found the tone of her voice unnecessary. I mean, common, I'm just looking for some direction.

The way I look at what she was telling me: Why are you concerned with this problem?  If it's not something you have to worry about then why bother? 

First: it's not a problem!

Secondly: It's called doing someone a favor,

or simply helping them out.

Third: that's not who I am.

Another incident, where my friend just wanted to know the process of something, and once again, because I didn't know, I tried asked around. Big mistake on my part. Because all I got was, "well, if it's that important, then shouldn't that person be trying to figure out what's going on by themselves?" 

SERIOUSLY?

No duh, they're trying to figure it out!

Because 

I thought 

when you need help, 

you go to someone who already went through something similar before

OR

someone who might know the answer and can possibly help.

But I guess not?

So basically, it's saying, if you don't know the answer, forget asking anyone for help.  Since when did it become "a do it yourself, or just don't bother asking for help at all" attitude?

can someone explain that to me?

misconception of change

People change.

But then again, some don't.

Is change a bad thing?

It can be.

But at the same time, change occurs daily.  Without change,

there would be no excitement and everything would remain the same.

Change is what you make of it.

photos, not quality expected?

-photo 1: random posed shot

-photo 2: An attempt to capture a different angle.

result: fairly decent, but not quick enough.

-Next step: when opportunities present themselves, take advantage of the usage of an SLR.

-Future goal: own an SLR. maybe.

*first time use of an SLR since Publications; that's about 1/2 a year! T_T

How much I miss taking pictures.

Don't Stalk.

While browsing through my friend's pictures, I came across this photo.  Now there's something you don't see every day. I forgot exactly who I obtain this from, but I'm interested in finding out where this is located.

neglected or just a forgott0n?

Remember back in the day when you were once young and had a list ready to go when mommy and daddy asked what you wanted?  You wanted it right then and there, and if you didn't get it, usually a hissy-fit would come, causing a big scene (which, undoubtably got you the item of desire).

Then after receiving what you wanted, you'll play with it for a while because not too long after you received that, a new item is up for grabs.

Now from all these items accumulated, what have you done with them? Sure, they've been played with, some even worn out, but how necessary were each of the items actually?

At the moment, of course they were extremely necessary.

duh, why else would you have bought it?

correction: your parents.

Reading this, some questions may arise, such as: What's the purpose of this?  What brings about this topic? And maybe even Why am I reading this? (for further questions, if not answered, please ask).

Current status: on spring break.

Point of spring break: to go out and have fun.

PROBLEM: everyone is already back in school.

(my) SOLUTION: clean house/room! (since I can't be in multiple places at once).

So as I'm cleaning out my closet, I've realized that there is a lot of stuff that from my childhood packed away in these boxes.

I mean, what else was I supposed to do with them?

maybe throw things away, like normal people do?

but those things [did] cost money!

As I was saying...I found my childhood packed away in boxes.  Now as I sit/stand in my room looking at everything, I'm wondering what to do with half the stuff. I suppose I could save it for the future, but that defeats the purpose of "spring cleaning". It would be more like, "spring reflection."

A good amount of these things that are still  in perfectly decent/fine condition.  But now looking at everything (I'm now in the box of clothes), I realize how much money I spent as child.  Some of this stuff  isn't even used! Great. Just wonderful. Not even used material that I have no use for now. And there are some things that sit in here in front of me that are currently new, and probably never going to be worn.

From all this stuff, I realize that now, when I'm out, I'm going to ask myself if I REALLYYYYY need it or not; will I REALLLLY use/wear whatever it is I'm going to buy?

I've developed a finer appreciation for the things I have.  It's just a matter of what I'm going to do with everything.

=]

Standing in the Light (A Lakota Way of Seeing) by Servert Young Bear and R.D. Theisz

p. 119

• By Caring, I think, I had to set the example of leadership.
  
• ...it's very difficult to be in that leadership role because it demands that commitment and responsibility of selflessness
• On the day when I knew my own identity, really knew who I am, it was because I found that I wanted people to remember how I cared.  I think that's why when I take on any responsibility, I give my whole ind, heart, and body to it...There's a very think line between real leadership and overdoing it.

From reading these lines, I acknowledge that leadership is not something to be taken lightly. It is actually another quality to have in life.  Reflecting back on everything I've done so far (and not to sound egotistical or anything), I've notice that most of the time I am placed in a position with a lot of responsibility.  Sometimes too quickly and too much at once. Which leads to stress.

Stress isn't good. 

Maybe I need to reconsider/reanalyze my priorities?

hmmm, no. it's not priorities...

 just manage the amount of tasks I'm responsible for. 

I think, for now.